I'm a planner. I may be a messy, unorganized scatter brain, but I love to plan. What has been a bit bothersome is me always trying to plan my life.
Am I a control freak? My answer is yes.
I sit and daydream practically everyday. Every now and then, I feel like I'm in a stand still. Like literally. For a few seconds, it's like everything around me is at a pause while I take a moment to catch a daze. I just stare into nothing and trip how life has been presented to me so far. Makes me wonder if someone on this Earth is doing the same exact thing as me. That kind of trip. A pretty deep trip, yeah? You still following me, here? (No, I'm not lit...LOL!)
Am I satisfied? Am I content? The answer is yes to both.
The year so far has given me so many opportunities to be to myself and just reflect on my life - accomplishments and failures. Life events come and go and usually not in the order I would prefer. I've come a long way. Let me just tell you. As much as I feel the need to grab and fix everything and have it function my way, I've taken life and accepted it as it is. It's beyond my control in a good way. I believe that I will get my reward soon enough. Reward? Eh, maybe 'reward' isn't the right word.
Embrace it, accept it, and move forward.