The Unknown is So Much Better!

I hate to break it to ya'll but this will my my series finale of the Cute Auditor Dude. Previously on Cute Auditor Dude:

Cute Auditor Dude: Episode 3

Yesterday, my life was ruined. Just kidding. More like my man crush is officially dunzo. I find out not only his name (Brian, by the way) but he has a girlfriend or as my friend Lana would say, BSkank. Then later, I was told that he's not just dating exclusively with a BSkank but also engaged to the little cunt. Ha-ha! I'm saying this in a not so serious way, ok? I like saying bad words. It makes it more fun to type and it gives a spicy kick to my blah-g. Anyway, so you think I'm trippin'? You think I'm hurt? Nah....for me it's just a matter of finding new eye candy at the work place. Unfortunately, I resort to the ever so lovely young auditors. We at the Accounting Department don't get that many visitors.   Kind of living a sheltered business life.  We at the 10th floor are basically stuck with each other whether we like it or not. I'm grateful to have a handful of co-workers that I enjoy spending 40 hours a week with. Crazy, right? And the end of the day, Cute Auditor Dude is no longer my cute auditor dude. He was better left a mystery...Now it's not much of a big deal to me. My infatuation for him died and I'm over it just like that. Such a let down, right? I was really looking forward with continuing this series with you all. Too bad, the unknown was let loose. Sorry people. Cute Auditor Dude, may you rest in peace. If I were able to turn back time, I would prefer the unknown. It works so much better for me. No disappointments or drama. We will forever miss your hotness as eye candy of course.

Cute Auditor Dude Part III

He's Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack! =) Previously, on Cute Auditor Dude: Cute Auditor Dude Episode 1 Cute Auditor Dude Episode 2 Welcome to the 3rd episode of Cute Auditor Dude. This weeks highlights are nothing special. It's more like "What If" moments. He's been here since Tuesday. He's still sitting diagonal from me with our backs facing each other. He still hasn't noticed me. He's still hot as can be. I should warn him about the chair he's sitting on which has a crusty old worn out cushion that was previously used by Ugly PC (former employee). She had the biggest kadunkadunk ever!! Like she literally had to remove the arms of the chair. Anyway. Here were my coulda shoulda moments:

1. He needed to code to the lobby doors on Tuesday. I wasn't at my cubicle at the time. So, where did he resort to? Freakin Grrrry. Ugh! Too late to walk back to my cube. Talk about bad timing. I wanted to like run and tell him myself but that would make me look umm, just a tad bit psychotic. I hope he forgets the code and asks again. Ask ME next time!
2. He sneezed this morning. He had such a cute sneeze. While I was in the moment of admiring his sneeze, I totally forgot to insert a "Bless You!" to him. UGH!!! Can I still do it? Would he say "Thank you"? Is it too late? (30 minutes later) I guess I'll wait.

I also want to mention that I LOVE how it's dark and gloomy outside. The combination of this magnificent weather and the indoor flourescent lights enables me to to see the his reflection on my window. [sigh] I can just day dream all day if the sun doesn't come out! Such a wonderful feeling! OK - I'm officially in stalker status. LOL!

p.s. I still don't know his name. Sad, huh?

Umm, Who Does That?!

Today is my last day with match.com. Yesterday, I got an email. Weird. This one shocked me a little bit. After reading the first sentence, I was convinced that someone hacked into my account and started winking at random FEMALES as a prank. Umm, not the case: 27 yr old FEMALE from San Jose says:

Hi there! First of all, let me make it very clear.. i'm interested in MEN, not WOMEN. lol I just moved to CA about 6 months ago from Oklahoma (yes, the land with NO asian people once or ever..lol) Most of my cool girlfriends are back home in Oklahoma so i'm hoping to make some new friends here. : ) Abit about me, my name is Claire. I was born and raised in Taipei, Taiwan and i moved to the States when I was 12. I currently live in Fremont and work in San Leandro. I like to read, hang out at local coffee shops, and catch good movies. : ) if u're interested to have another girlfreind to hang out with, my gchat is claireXXXXX@talkmatch.com. take care and i hope to hear from u soon! : )

Who does that?! First off, wrong website chick! If you are looking for friends please don't subscribe to match.com. For your information, match.com is a "dating" website. I repeat - DATING! Second, I have enough friends. Thanks for the email, though. That was sweet....(I think?) Can I just say... IT'S NOT OKAY TO LOOK!

Match.com Email Etiquette

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The 2nd Letter of the Alphabet

Let's back track a bit shall we? On October 15th of last year, I joined match.com for the second time around in hope of finding a cool dude. First time was more of a social experiment. It was all just for fun and curiosity. I was able to experience how it felt to be on a disaster date numerous times. (For example, I met a dude at a bar on Polk Street. He yelled at me when the bar dude took his unfinished drink away while he was in the bathroom. His drink looked done to me and in my defense, he didn't tell me!) Anyway, I was convinced after watching "The Secret" to give it another try. So here was my basic profile:

About Me: I don't really ask for much, but maybe it's time for me to deserve something good in life and if that happens to be a good genuine man, then I'm all for it! Friendship is everything. In every relationship, that's the starting point. Though, it's really tough finding true friends.What I'm looking for - - -Everyone has their way of finding their perfect match. For me, I'm just looking for someone that makes you feel comfortable right from the get go. From all night conversations to saying nothing while lying on the couch together. Someone that doesn't care much about appearance or materialistic things. It's all about great company. Just a little about me: I'm usually quiet and reserved in the beginning, but once I get comfortable I get more interesting. I would say my personality separates me from the rest. I'm not a girlie girl nor a tomboy. I'm a free spirited messy klutz who cusses like there's no end (hope you don't mind). I'm also a simple, easygoing, gullible person who can be sarcastic at times.There are times where I can be shockingly intelligent and other times I act like a stoner (i said act like NOT am). One minute I'll be goofy with a wacky ass imagination. Now who doesn't like variety? I live a non-extravagant life and I enjoy the simplest things. I'm a bit of a oddball always full of curiosity. I hate being old-fashioned and conventional. I'm a horrible liar so don't worry about trust when it comes to me.

The following day, to my surprise, I get an instant message from a dude I like to call, letter B. About three weeks later, we had our first date. It was really kick it. I immediately felt comfortable around him. Not physically comfortable, but more like the feeling that I've known him longer than the actual 3 hours we spent at BJ's. His presence and company made me feel at ease. Totally the opposite feeling any normal person would feel on a first semi-blind date. Initial meetings are usually awkward. Not in this case.

Before my first meeting with letter B, I was sitting in my car in the parking lot. He was running a bit late, which is one of my pet peeves especially when it cuts time away from eating. No one likes to see me food deprived. Anyway, I decided to let this one pass since it was a rainy day. Last thing I'd want to hear is him getting into an accident due to rushing. I remember I was on the phone with my girlfriend, Twinks. She was totally coaching me on what to say, how to act, etc. as if I've never been out with a dude. She was all, "If he compliments you, just smile and say thank you." Apparently, I have a habit of crushing the male ego. Me? Never! Muahahahaha! Nah - but on a serious note...I guess it's partly true. Now we are back to the present (a couple months later). I have not yet found anything wrong with letter B. Is this a good sign? Give me another couple months and I'll let you know. OK, OK - jokes aside. letter B is a cool dude. We seem to click so far. He seems really genuine and patient. He understands my situation and apparently, it's fine with him. All and all, I'm having a good time and right now that's all that matters.

Cute Auditor Dude

Attention All: Cute Auditor Dude from last year's audit is back! If only I had the guts to tell him I missed him. [sigh] If I told him I liked him, will he feel the same about me? He's literally two cubicles away. Yikes! I like have butterflies. It's a shame that darn Jason keeps embarrassing the living crap out of me. I swear every thirty minutes, I'm constantly reminded that this is my last day being 29. On top of that, he tells me that I'm too old to listen to the Cheetah Girls and also a loser for listening to Clay Aiken via Yahoo Launchcast. The entire floor can hear him mock me. That definitely ruins my chance now! Great. I had to pull him aside to ask desperately and politely to stop making a fool out of me in front of strangers. He simply laughed and walked away. Cute Auditor Dude must think I'm a low life cougar now. Auditors are normally fresh out of college. Usually they intern as a requirement for their CPA license. I don't think I've ever met one that chose Auditing as a career. I hope he never changes careers though. He's good eye candy. We actually shared a hallway at the same time this morning. Both of us were walking opposite directions towards each other. I got nervous and totally avoided eye contact by looking at the darn floor. To make matters worse, this had to be the day I'm NOT wearing make-up. In addition, I have a mushroom hair head. Note to self: I'm long overdue for another a haircut.

Alex Karev

If I were to compare myself to a fictional character it would definitely be Alex Karev from my favorite drama television series, Grey's Anatomy. I know, I know. He's a dude and I'm a chick. Personality-wise I think the two of us are very much alike. And yes, I know most of you fans of Grey must think he's a jerk. Leave him alone...he reminds me of me! So, I just finished watching the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy. In one of the last scenes, Karev finally had to guts to confront Izzie about his feelings for her. It's about time Karev! In prior episodes, Izzie has made many attempts to express her feelings towards Karev. And every single time Karev would just blow her off. It was just a matter of time that Karev would finally crack. And that he finally did. I'm so happy for them both. They are now exclusive and "going steady". I just love the connection they both have for each other. I wish I can find my Izzie (a male version though, ok?). Like Karev, I have an offensive type of behavior. Don't believe me? Well then, I guess you don't know me. I'm truly competitive inside and always want to be better than anyone else. I'm not quite sure if I'm suffering from the case of the middle child syndrome so let's just not rule that out yet. I hold a lot of pride and can be very insensitive at times. In true honesty, that's my defense mechanism. Hiding the sensitive part of me just makes me feel stronger than everyone else in the room. For those that first meet me can't possibly predict the true person that I am. I've noticed throughout my life I've had people tell me that I come off as a shy and reserved person. I can be but once you get to know me, you'd wish I'd remain that shy and reserved girl. As far as dating and relationships are concerned, it takes a whole lot to crack into this thick exterior of mine. Only a selective amount of individuals close to me have seen the softer side. And sad to say, only a few have suceeded in being exclusive with me. As brutally honest Karev is with his patients is like me with my friends and family. I'm truthful to those that mean the world to me. I have morals and will stand up for what I feel is right. So what's the point of this whole blog post about me and Alex Karev, you ask? Well, being hopeful that I attempt to be at times, I'm trying to be optimistic that I find an Izzie. An Izzie is someone that who is patient and can teach me how to express my emotions. My Izzie would help me keep that balance needed for a sucessful relationship. I've scared off a lot of guys in the past. I can also admit that some of them were actually good catches. But hey - things happen for a reason and I'm not going to dwell in the past. All I can say is that there's got to be someone out there - shoooot.

Bodyboarder from Kona

My second night in Hawaii, all the girls decided to go out for Gin's last night as a bachelorette. We first stopped over Yardhouse and did a couple shots. I was introduced to a local named Landon originally from Kona. He was such a cutie. We kicked it for a bit. We hung out at Waikiki Beach after Gin's Bach Party Part II concluded. I felt bad because his buddy Ray was waiting on him. I guess we lost track of time. I later found out that his buddy had to take a $50 cab ride home. Ooops! My bad. The day after the wedding we reconnected once again. He was such a sweetheart by taking the time out of his busy schedule to drive downtown and hang out with me one last time. I later discovered that he was a professional bodyboarder. I was immediately reminded of one of my favorite movies, Blue Crush (hehe). Wow! Now that's true local status right there. Anyway, our hanging out session was cut short. He had to go off to work and I was on my way to Gin and Brian's BBQ picnic at Kapiolani Park. He was nice enough to give me a ride to the park even though it wasn't that far from my hotel. I rode on the back of his moped even though it was illegal to have two people on it. Don't worry, the police didn't catch us. And that was it. It was cool kickin' with him for a short time. He's probably so used to meeting tourists on a daily basis anyways. I told him I'd google him once I get home. And guess what? I did! LOL! Check out these awesome pics! Good Times...good times...

The Year of the Gentleman

First and foremost, my biggest apology goes out random black dude solicitor on 4Th Avenue in San Mateo. I'm so sorry. I just did something really bad. Unintentionally of course. So this dude volunteers for a homeless shelter and apparently collects donations from random passer byers. Everyday, it's a different person. When I have extra change, I do my part and make a donation. When I don't have any loose change on me, I simply ignore them and go about my way. Well, so dude is posted right in front of Jamba Juice. Keep in mind, I don't have cash. We make eye contact and I smile to him politely. He says, "I'm looking forward to seeing that smile on your way out!". I walk into Jamba Juice. Order my usual Chunky Strawberry and pay via debit card. On my way out, he pulls open the door for me. Instead of saying "Thank you!", my immediate reply was "Sorry, I don't have any cash on me". He got offended but said in a nice manner. "Oh no Miss, I wasn't asking for anything from you. All I wanted to do is be a gentleman and open the door for you." I felt so bad afterwards. I said sorry but kept on walking back towards the office. As we parted he was chanting on and on. I already felt bad. I was like 20 feet away from him by then. And the last thing I heard come out of his mouth, "I'm just trying to do a good thing and be a gentleman. That's all." In my defense, I screamed out, "Again I'm so sorry. Guess I'm not used to it!" (meaning the gentleman treatment). After I said that, I turned to take a quick glance at him to see if he heard me. I wanted to see his reaction. I witness a very disappointed look on his face. He seemed let down that women no longer appreciate small things like that. He looked at me and nodded his head slowly and spoke in a louder voice so that I can hear him, "I understand. I was just trying to be nice...". He continued to speak loudly, "It's a darn shame you feel that way". After that, I heard nothing more. I think he forgave me. If he didn't then he would have shook his head from left to right, don't you think? I felt so bad still. As a child, his mother probably taught him to always be polite and well-mannered with the ladies. Sucks man [sigh] I hated myself for a moment. I don't like to hurt people that try to do good. As I was walking further and further away, I began to think. That is pretty sad. It's sad that I get into total defense mode when a male tries to perform a simple act of kindness. It's sad that I continue use negativity and lose all hope for finding a man who carry these 'gentleman' characteristics. In actuality - they do still exist! It's sad that I always question myself - "Why is he being so nice? What does he really want from me in return?" As if every kind gesture from a man is automatically turned into a business proposition? It's sad that I make that immediate bad assumptions. As a women, I should appreciate this more often. As a women, I should learn how a simple thank you and smile is good enough - even if at times, I feel a bit uncomfortable about it. To all the genuine gentlemen- Keep on doing what you're doing. Hopefully, women like me will finally come to our senses and know that good things will eventually come our way rather than always expecting the worst out of a situation. Don't give up. Instead, spread the word because it seems like the inconsiderate a$$holes are taking over the world. You guys are slowly becoming extinct which leads us women to believe that every gentleman we approach are really jerks in disguise. Show us that you are real and I'm sure it will pay off in the long run. Thanks!

Filipino?

I'm saddened this late afternoon. I just found out that my crush at work is married (I knew that part) to a Filipino chick. What?! Like dude, that could've been me? He's such a hottie. When will my Prince Charming come to sweep me off my feet. LOL! I think I'm way too sensitive today. My monthly visit came early hence hormones up the ying-yang! I'm so retarded. But, I'm seriously thinking of trying out match.com for the second time around. I was more skeptical last time. I think I have a more open mind about meeting people online now. It's like the new thing to do. It's like the norm these days! But for your information, I'm not seeking desperate measures at this present time. I just ran out of ways to meet people outside of my social circle. It's time to develop some new friendships! But we'll see. I'm still pondering about spending $59.99 for a three month subscription, especially with the horrible economy.

Wedding Fantasy

Guys - Yes. It's so very true. Every chick, I mean EVERY chick fantasizes about their Wedding Day. Last night, I was lying in bed after a scrumptious dinner consisting of dungeness crab. I was having trouble falling asleep. Tell me why did I randomly try to envision my wedding day? What's funny is that I didn't stop myself once I noticed. My mind probably kept on going for maybe an hour and a half until I knocked out. For the life of me, I could not help but brainstorming ideas here and there: - What colors should I have? - Destination Wedding or here in the Bay? - Where should the ceremony and reception be at? - Should I do an indoor or outdoor wedding? First of all, why was I thinking of my wedding day already? I don't even have a man! Pretty sad. Now that I'm in this wedding dream planning mode, I can't stop. I'm like the energizer bunny. Last night, I already set a place where my ceremony will be held. All I can say is that its outdoors and has a fantastic view! Being a chick, I have to keep my ideas very secretive. We all know how girls are caddy like that. We all want our wedding days to be unique and original. I know definitely I want to have a small intimate wedding. Guests between 50-75 would be cool. Great news (for me)! This morning, I found the perfect place to have my reception at. All I can say is that its my type of venue. It also has good food reviews per Yelp. My plan is to scope it out in person one of these days (hopefully before the New Year because I'm oh so anxious!) Guess what else? I even chose my photographer and my flowers!! WHAT! I'm on a roll! Also, I already know who my bridesmaids will be. My sisters, of course! That already alleviates the stress of choosing between friends. That's a smart move, right? So the only issue really is picking my color(s). Ideally two colors should be good but I want to be different and have three! You think that will be too much? Back tracking to more than two years ago, I had originally chose the color tangerine (orange). I even told my younger sister that she was NOT to steal that color away from me. I called it already! Long story short - my cousin ended up using that color in her wedding (unintentionally). Believe it or not, I was furious once I found out. Again, it's the caddy thing so don't take it personal. Good news though. A month or so later, I got over it. I seriously, just want to stop being in this weird mood. I'm hoping as soon as I get my color(s) down then I can be content for now and keep my focus elsewhere. OK - I'm done. Time to look at some images of my ceremony and reception venues online. I love looking at the pictures. OMG - I forgot! What kind of dress am I going to wear!? Crap!